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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 00:47

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

She was in good health!

He knew the spot.

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I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

I waited trembling.

I will be 64.

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

So, i spoilt her more .

How old is planet Earth? Is it 4.5 billion years old or 6,000 years old?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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We all went to grammer schools

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Why didn't my ex fight for our relationship? He gave up so easily.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I said to her

How do women feel when they are in love?

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

I have no regrets .

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

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I think the readers, may guess!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Why don’t people want the American Dream anymore - marriage, kids, a dog, and the white picket fence?

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I never cut or harmed myself..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

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I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Why did Cartman love Heidi purely with heart, her being the first one he ever did, but then one day Butters tells him that all women are manipulative and then he began to believe that she was a bad person and pretended to be a victim?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

So whats the point in blame.

One cannot live in the past .

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But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

I couldn’t, believe it.

Would this be the day?

Are you more of a butt guy or a boob guy?

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I don,t even have a pension.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

I was 9 years of age.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Was to survive, this bastard.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Especially a lifetime of it.

She married twice! .

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I had hoped to write a book about this .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She loved him until the end.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She wouldn,t have been !

I was scared of men, in general

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I was seconnd youngest,

He resisted the act ,that day.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Who then, do I blame.?

My life is so biszare .

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She found it foreign!.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Comes on , in middle age.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Why did i forgive my father ?

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

The only rule us 5 kids had .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I was very sick at this time too.

Im still living with it.

When she asked me how she looked .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

We were not on the streets..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Put me off passion for life!!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I write beautiful poetry .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

This is soul school!.

But, we were locked up after school.

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But ive been too sick for many years..

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Ive learnt so much.

What did i know ?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

(And it was in our own minds.)

My family never makes their pension either.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

All the time i was locked up.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

It was going to be , some day.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

As i do to all so called friends.?

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

And i lived it daily.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

But it wasn’t much.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.