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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 01:02

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I was seconnd youngest,

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But im dying ,and its too late for me.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

What is one thing nice you did for someone today or something they did for you?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As i do to all so called friends.?

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Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I have no regrets .

Why does my crush make me jealous about having a girlfriend?

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

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Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I waited trembling.

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Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Im still living with it.

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One cannot live in the past .

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

How did China invent gunpowder but it was the European nations that went out and “conquered the world using firearms”?

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Are there any penalties for bestiality in the USA and laws prohibiting it?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Why am I always so tired, no matter how much I sleep?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

I was very sick at this time too.

She loved him until the end.

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And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Especially a lifetime of it.

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Why did i forgive my father ?

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

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And i lived it daily.

Ive learnt so much.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She married twice! .

Put me off passion for life!!

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I couldn’t, believe it.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

So, i spoilt her more .

(And it was in our own minds.)

So whats the point in blame.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

But ive been too sick for many years..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My life is so biszare .

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

This is soul school!.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She found it foreign!.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

My family never makes their pension either.

I think the readers, may guess!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

When she asked me how she looked .

I said to her

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Comes on , in middle age.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

She wouldn,t have been !

He resisted the act ,that day.

We all went to grammer schools

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Would this be the day?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

We were not on the streets..

I was 9 years of age.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I write beautiful poetry .

I don,t even have a pension.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

She was in good health!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

What did i know ?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

I could never make a relationship work though!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

Who then, do I blame.?

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But it wasn’t much.

I never cut or harmed myself..

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

It was going to be , some day.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

All the time i was locked up.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I was scared of men, in general

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

But, we were locked up after school.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I will be 64.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

He knew the spot.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.